…some days you feel like the geeky victim in a teen slasher movie….
Guess you can figure out how i’m feeling right now. I’m home w/ connor and the power is out. Its estimated to come back on in 2 hours. So for two hours my nerves are on edge. Every noise is freaking me out. I’m attempting to stay calm, but its not working– hey i said attempting, i never guaranteed success!!!
Anyway, I’ve decided, in another attempt to keep myself calm that I would write, but without light the only place i have to write is here. What this means for you, my loyal readers, is that you get a sneak peek of something to read. It will be insanely rough around the edges but its been working in my brain for a few days now and needs to come out.
“This is so nice,” Abby sighed as she snuggled against Cooper’s side.
Cooper mentally patted himself on the back as he wrapped his arm around Abby and leaned his head against hers. They were laying on a sleeping bag that Cooper had spread out in the back of his dad’s pick up. He’d told Abby they were coming out here to watch the stars when he’d stopped the truck in the hay field not far from his parents place, but he had other ideas.
No, not those ideas, well okay, those ideas too, but they hadn’t been his first thoughts. Mostly.
Cooper shifted his other arm, the one not holding Abby, from where he’d been resting his head on it and felt his pocket. He fingered the small circle through the denim of his jeans and ran the pad of his index finger over the edge of the diamond. Would she say yes? God, he hoped so.
“How long are you home for?” Abby pulled away from his side to prop herself up and look down at him.
“That depends,” Cooper shrugged along with his answer.
“On what?”
“A lot of things.”
“Like?” Abby hadn’t even tried to hide her annoyance with Cooper. “Dammit, Cooper, stop making me pry and just tell me whats going on!”
“I can’t give you answers I don’t have, Abby,” Cooper turned on his side and propped himself up on an elbow. They were now facing each other, their noses only centimeters apart. All he’d have to do is turn his face slightly, lean forward, and touch his lips to hers and he could end all her questions. But he didn’t. This was a conversation they’d been having every day since he’d gotten home 6 days earlier. And no matter how many times he’d side tracked her, Abby kept coming back to wanting details he didn’t have to give her, or didn’t want to give her just yet.
“I know you received a letter from the Marines today.” She flopped back down on the blanket and stared at the stars blindly.
“Snooping through my mail, Ms. Raleigh?”Cooper leaned over so he was looking down at her and blocking her view of the night sky.
“Hardly, the envelope was sitting out on your desk. I saw it while I was in your room earlier. And it was open, which meant you read it. Why won’t you tell me what it says?”
He had read it. It was the letter he’d been waiting for. He’d applied to the 219th Special Operations and Recon unit hoping that they would accepting him once he graduated from Annapolis Naval Academy. The letter was their acceptance and his travel orders. In two weeks he was to report to the base in Virginia, just south of Washington DC, to begin training with the unit.
“Okay, fine, I’ll tell you what the letter said,” Cooper pushed himself up so he was sitting then scooted back to rest against the cab of the truck.
“Do you remeber me mentioning the 219th in my last email?”
“Yeah, you said you had applied to the unit.”
“The letter was their acceptance and my orders. I have to be at the base in Virginia in two weeks,” he paused when Abby gasped then slapped his chest.
“We only have two more weeks together and you are just telling me now!”
“Well, I was kind of hoping to talk you into coming with me when I left.” As he was talking, Cooper pulled the ring out of his pocket and held it up so the moon light glinted off the diamond.
“Abby, this is a huge step for me. I’m starting my life, my career. I just graduated from Annapolis, I got accepted to the unit I wanted, the only thing that could make this perfect is if I got to do all of this with you, the woman I love, by my side.”
Her right hand was covering her mouth in shock while she’d closed her left into a tight.fist and pressed it against her chest. Cooper could see tears in her eyes as she stared first at him, and then the ring, and back again. She was taking a long time to answer him.
“Abby?” Cooper watched her face as he reached forward for her left hand. If he could pry her fist open, he was going to slip the ring onto her third finger.
“No,” She whispered and pulled her hand back away from him.
“No? But how will we know if I got the right size if you don’t let me put it on your hand?”
“No, not that. No. Cooper, no. I… I… I can’t go to Virgibia with you, I can’t marry you.”
“What? Why?” Cooper felt his heart drop and his stomach tighten. He wasn’t sure if he was going to puke or die of a heart attack first.
“I just…. I can’t…” She continued to stare down at the ring then back up at him. “Oh, my God. I never expected you to propose.”
“Abby, I love you. Why wouldn’t I propose. Hell, I would’ve done this sooner, but the academy doesn’t allow married men in and I’m not real big on long engagements,” This was going horribly wrong. She’d said no.
“Cooper, I can’t. I love you too, but I can’t marry you. I’m sorry.”
Cooper watched as Abby stood up and walked to the end of the pick up then jumped down to the ground and began walking back toward his parent’s house where her car was parked. He couldn’t believe she’d said no. He hadn’t expected it, and now he didn’t know what to do.